I will graduating soon.
The final exams are over, thesis has been submitted but there still some professional courses need to be taken in order to graduate.
That is why im still in UTM.
At times of late, I always wondering what would I do so that I would not regret leaving UTM.
Few times before the exam week,
I feel kind of sad and a bit teary when thinking that I might not be able to see all the dear friends, lecturers..
having student rush.
girls talks.
classes.
evergreen carefree feeling.
Youth spirit rising high.
* Im not sure what actually i will be miss but, not seeing each other not so often, can make me sobbing.
UTM is really far away from my hometown, PENANG.
even when semester break, I usually stay at UTM,
doing some programmes or stuffs..
so, I have been these feeling since exam week.
and I'm having this slow motion of departure with these dear friends because
after having exam, thesis submission, we have professional courses.
I'm taking photos as much as I can and record videos to treasure these last moments.
These last few moments....
Until i realized,
I should stop being sad because we not gonna see each other for a long time.
Yes, indeed, at this time also, I still feel . sad.
I will enjoy these few moments left and with these and other moments have been created in UTM,
I will use it to face the future.
Recently, I watched Nodame and Glee.
They all are basically a bunch of high school academy who share the same passion and care for each other to the max.
And at the end point, the will have to go on their own ways and face the future.
Being a student , always make me in comfort zone.
Don't have to care so much about outside world of politician, insurances, paying house loan, car loans, electricity bills,, phone bills, water bills and other bills.
EVERGREEN CAREFREE FEELING.
when you graduated,
you going to step out of that comfort zone,
there are new, huge burden that going to be place on your shoulder.
some a huge, some are not.
But, it makes you feel more RESPONSIBLE.
family income, siblings tuition, own needs.
or, fulfilling family's request to further.
or, other options.
EITHER WAY, the road ahead going to be tougher, more thorns with some jewels hidden.
I wish by creating our moments together here,
we'll able to make the journey to that road.
and I'm not going to be sad anymore.
I will enjoy it while I can.
and when the time to depart comes,
Lets be thankful that our fate have tied us for almost 4 years and,
Lets lift a new courage spirit to support each other to go through the road ahead.
p/s: its OK to cry if its joy. Recently into "Say a little Prayer for You"- Glee Version.
The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you
While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you.
I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.
Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart.
