Im over thinking

Its 15th Ramadhan.

I dont know what im feeling right now.

It feels..

Slow.

Quiet.

Static.

Soft.

Melancholic.

Sabishi..

Im at my home.

Still wearing sock.

I dunno why i still keep wearing it after back from work.

It feels warm, i guess.

Had my dinner.

Now sitting down on cold hard floor,

Leaning on soft sofa on my back.

Staring blankly in front.

Tears start to well up...
I close my eyes, frowning.
The rolling tears demand an answer...
which i barely know about it..

I just dont know why im feeling this way.

A heavy sigh..

I just got back from Penang this afternoon.

Playing with my two nephews..it was such a cherish and priceless memory.

They truly bundle of joy.

I took a half day today.

Punch in 1pm.

As i stroll back slowly step after step to the car after work,

A thought came.

A rather questioning-myself thought.

Would it be better just to have quiet slow life?

I was thinking of changing job.

Would i be happy with the new job?

Why wouldnt i not be happy with current one?

Was it because it out of my comfort zone?

Why i over-think about it?

What do i want in life, actually?

I do penned down my thoughts of not having any of career development as of now.

If i jumped, i would be something else.

A career improvement,perhaps.

But, will it makes me happy?

Im mulling over this back and forth.

I put up my resume at jobstreets and there are some calls ive received.

Hmm......


Each time a call came,
I said "No, im not thinking of changing job at the moment."
See what i did there...haih....
What is wrong with me~~~

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