Saturday, December 5, 2015

Rant on Daily Life 2015 12 05


Yesterday in my life history, I went back from work at 6am, on Saturday after clock in at 8am, Friday.
It was because of no data entry at Body Machining from PTOS. (the system I've been incharge of).
So, yea.

It start with I was staying up late at the office after work. Met up with night shift and they informed that the data that was supposed to receiv at 4.++pm on Friday, do not received at Body up until 9pm saturday.
Being there , in the office, I feel obligate to assist the situation and suggest the Body Machine to have a reboot their system, hoping that way, it will received our data.
It was a final call as we did many data resend but still no data at the Body machine.

To our dismay, the body app which controls the machining failed to up after boot.
It was 2:am in the morning.
I called every person who know about the Body Machine.
But all in vain as the only expert on the machine is a Korean guy who already went back to Korea.
so, yea.
We endlessly try to boot again up until the 5th time, we gave up.
I communicated with my boss through whatsapp and we successfully insert the pending data after try and error with few apps at the desktop.
but the Body app still fails to visible itself.
it was 4:32am.
How time flies when in critical moments.

I heard stories of one of our managers have a daughter who suddenly collapse and do not breath.
He immediately do CPR for about 20 minutes non stop. Having done that,  he said it was the most life terrifying and short moments in his life. He did not realized he been doing CPR for 20 minutes.
Her daughter is alright then by the CPR but detected a far more life threatening condition and had passed away few months after.

So the Plant Maintenance try to work the robots without the Body Apps and it successful.
The PM didn't know at the first place that the robot could move without the Body App.
And Body run as per normal at 5am , without the Body App, running.
so yea.
we learnt 2 things today:-
How to insert pending data to Body App.
the Robot can operate as per normal without the Body App.

Few days back, I was complaining and feel upset on how my position as IT exec in the factory.
Which I felt like having no growth and future career development as what I doing now is a routine and nothing changes for the pass 3 and a half years,
3 and half years is a very long time.
If having a kid, the kid could run already.

But then, this Body incident happened.
I felt like a change.
an eye opener.
Yes, I was terrified that the apps do not appear after boot up.
My heart skip a beat.
My hands were shaking.
I become numb and cold.
I was thinking..." Ya Allah..habis la. Macam mana nak jalan ni. Nanti output tadak. Nak kena mengadap lagi."
that was 2am thoughts.
Then, after relentlessly trying to search for some clues on the PC, called every person related to the Body apps and reboot many time, I felt like the butterflies had flew away,
I do feel regret on suggesting the reboot. But, things happens and we have done our best to resolve it.

And the part where I thought to myself.."habis la nak kena menjawab.." shouldnt be the said in the first place.
Why should I be afraid of the management?
I should remain on objective of assisting the body production and afraid on how body going to met their output target.
Yes, I do have to face the management on this Monday, to present on this issue.
But I shouldn't be afraid or having cold feet.
We do what we thought best and if they were the same spot as our, they would highly likely to do the same.
problems happens everyday and it does not stays there forever.
It will go away eventually.

So, this is the change of 3.5 years.
I do not felt so jumpy when encounter with issues or trouble.
Interact with many level of person.
felt high obligation to the assist and giving my best even if is not in my job scope.
I will not said " Ini bukan masalah saya" or " takut nak present morning market @ orang atas".

After so long, I found my passion.
I love helping people.
I love helping resolved other people's problem.
having doing that, it give me self-satisfaction.

But, yes, It does take a toll on me.
I sleep less than usual.
Have to pick up the phone occasionally for night shift.
Stay up late to study on the root cause or new enhancement.
Or do coding after work because you cannot cramp all task from 8am to 530pm because there always issue and troubleshooting.
And to get in the mood and tasks switching are real challenging.
My meal is barely nutritious and out of sync.
Having occasional headache and goes away in time.
My life in a mess right now as I neglected to fold the clothes and other household chores.
I felt tired all the time.

I read about when your life is not barakah or you are far away from Allah, you will be consumed by endless busyness of worldly things.
I do felt that way.
Hmm.... it just seems endless as I browsed through my pending tasks.
I need to repent and get my ducks in line.

I seek forgiveness from You..Ya Allah..
You gave me this to answer my doubt and uneasiness.
I shall do better in the future and hopefully able to see the light in darkest moment.

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