a lingering thought..

what if we hold to long for such a disturbing thoughts??
we think about it all the time
BUT nothing ever come to mind to overcome it..
instead of thinking a solution, we keep wondering
"why this is happening to me?"
"its it really my fault?"
"do i need to take the blame?"
"why he/she do like that?"
"what the reason behind it?"
then, we fuel up our anger and cant wait to meet she/he tomorrow to asked those questions,
like shooting a million bullet toward she/he..

BLAME.
I don't like the situation.
because just by thinking it to much, we are blinded by anger.
We only saw the blame is on she/he.
anger indeed make us irrational.
be flexible.
act like adult.
does flexible and adult spell yelling and anger????

YELLING and ANGER means you are threaten by your own feeling.
you are insecure.
you afraid.


why does people yell in a harsh way?
they put their brain on their knee.*well, this is a bit melampau but, its true*
why cant they talk in a calm way..there's no need to yell
our ears a for smooth and calm sound*except for hard-rock metalist*
no one going to hear if you keep yelling and shouting. no one.
bagai mencurah minyak dalam api lagi ada la..
thats all for now.
its my situation for now. pen off.

1st experience as first timer

kena marah ngn org lebih tua sbb urusan rasmi.
hurm.
saya penat
TAKUT
letih
pening
untuk berjumpa dengan En.Sabri semula.

p/s: pengalaman 1st for kena marah. saya dah tak kisah.

HAEVY WORKLOAD...

Its 2.06 am in the morning, just got back from PESBAC's 09 meeting..
There's a lot of people and seniors..
so, being a Ketua Unit and a junior, really a bit hard..
For few days..I join latihan pusat for Hockey MASUM..
My whole body aching but..it was really worth it..
I hope can join MASUM next year..
Hope so.

U4 just have 1 LAN port, so, im using the UTM WIFI near azah minimart ..
We have to stay at U4 starting 12th..
Miza and Nurin going for their match tomorrow..13th.
Phase 1 for masum at UUM..
Good luck for them!

well, its been a long~long~long day..
Im tired and tomorrow got to wake early..
ciao!

HAHAHA......!~

hehehe..
My brother..3rd brother msg me through YM yesterday..
saying..
the last farewell song is too annoying...he just open my page blog for few second and closed it because cant stand the song..

hehehe..
I like that song, bro...
If only you knew what they singing about..
If only..

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nothing to do today..
Im gonna stay at fadh's room tomorrow morning..at K9..
as KP need to be cleared by tomorrow, before 5pm..
Miza and nurin really had tight schedule training ahead of them..
only see them at night..after 10pm..
MASUM really get people work up...
MASUM is sport competition between universities around Malaysia..
They play handball..
Fadh play hockey..*which I really really want to go for it but not a chance..*

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hazie goimg to through away the CJ7..
as it already torn apart..
I got it one also..


p/s: got to go! Miza calling for me to go down to K9..now!!!haaaaaa..!

IBARAT AIR PAIP YANG TIDAK DITUTUP RAPAT..

result exam...
final exam hari tu..
senarai tampal dah boleh tengok..
tapi..
sikit-sikit keluarnya..
ibarat air paip tak tutup rapat..
mula-mula..
Software Engineering...dzailin bagi tahu..
lepas itu...
COA..Computer Organization and Architecture..tahu sendiri dari lecturer..
hari ini pulak.. Bell baru bagi tahu..
Database...
Seksyen Miza..Programming Technique II dah boleh tahu..ejat bagi tahu..

Mendebarkan tahu....!!!!
hurm..

Jadi tak semua tahu lagi..
TITAS..
Seni Grafik...
Programming Technique II..
belum tahu lagi untuk mengira jumlah pointer sebenar...

nanti result kena hantar pada Pn. Adila...Proton..
Kalu bawah 3.00 kena suspend scholarship..
adoh~~



Bantu aku, Ya Allah..

waiting and wondering...

NEW GIRL ON DA BLOCK!

huhu...
we got new fellow of blogger~
give a big hand for SYAZA!!!
hahahahha..
*clap,clap,clap*


you guys can browse through this(just click on this link) : ~Where My Heart Belong~



a little of her blog....
take a look guys!!

GAzebo Kg. Kurnia..

semalam...
akibat terlalu tidak tahu nk buat apa...
tergerak untuk ckp ngn zaireel..kuar makan kat luar...
dah tu dye ckp, ajim ade kete...
lepas slow talk ngn ajim..
dapat la ketenya...

ronggeng lah kami berenam..
ainun, nor, miza, beatrice, zaireel as assistant driver and Os Rogi sbg Driver berdedikasi...



jauh jugak Kg. Kurnia dr UTM..
dah nk sampai umah hajar..

lepas park kete..berjalanlah kami ke gazebo tu..
dalam duk jalan ke sana..sorang ahli tersesat masuk kedai..
hahahahaha...
haish...maklumla..dye tak biasa dgn semenanjung..
nasib baik beatrice sebelah aku..kalu tak, ngn dye-dye skali sesat.. (^_^)


antara menu yg kami pesan...
ikan kukus GAZEBO...
sayur goreng kailam sos tiram..
taufu hotplate..
tomyam campur..*sedap gak*
makan dengan nasi putih...
air...tak yah crita kot..biasa ja...

tomyam dye..ada lebih skit..jadi, dah alang-alang dekat dengan umah hajar..
tergerak nk bagi tomyam tu kat hajar..
dye suka tomyam..


setelah habis melantak..pulang lah kami kerana sudah hampir pukul 12..


keesokan harinya..
ramai yang mendapat tahu kami ke Kg. Kurnia..
hahahhaha
reaksi sgt memberangsangkan!

"dak2 nh jalan tak pernah nk ajak"
"korang..dah aku balik br nak kua.."

huhu..
nh pon plan on da spot...
ala..kuar makan ja..hehe
len kali kita sewa van..kuar ramai2..huhu
sori geng...

p/s: sedap gak tomyam dye..pekat..elok mkn ngn nasi putih..
hari nh..masih memikirkan apa yang perlu dibuat..baca cleo je kot yang sempat direbat oleh miza dan beatrice sebelum makcik cleaner amik~
p/s 2:gamba nya..nti kot..nor ada amik, tapi..dye dah balik ganu pagi tadi..tak sempat nk transfer..huhu..

MENGEMAS BARANG..

banyak gak barang yang perlu dikemas..


tapi,
dah selamat masuk dlm beg dan kotak..
2 beg bagasi...
2 kotak..1 kecik..1 besar..
dah simpan stor dah...

tapi, 1 bagasi tu..nk bawak g PESBACs'09..


bilik pon dah kurang isinya...

Hajar dah pulang..

takpe..next sem ble jumpa lagi....

miza plak datang utm balik sbb training masum...

ada gak orang..

Nor balik esk pagi...tlg2 dye trun barang gak tadi..
dye pon tolong bawak trun barang saya,,,

dah tak tahu nk wat apa hari nh..


penajaan pesbacs tak wat lagi..
hadoi...


kadang-kadang cam nak quit saja...

*tak baik..amanah..jgn lepas tgn..*.....


ok2.

kalu nk kemas barang...longgokkan barang 1 tempat..pastu..start packing!hehe


p/s: terbeli bihun sup segera..tp..heater dah simpan stor........hadoi.......
saya kena maju!

SAAT PERPISAHAN..

bila dikenang kembali..
dah banyak perpisahan yang aku tempuh.....
waktu nak habis darjah 6..
waktu nak pindah ke maktab...dr St.George...
semua yang nak pindah..bagi ucapan terakhir kat depan kawan-kawan..
*suara memang tersekat-sekat masa tu..sebak*

lepas itu..
kerja kilang jap..
berpisah lagi dngan staff-staff dan rakan-rakan sekerja yang lain...
Siap ada makan seafood masa last day..

kemudian..
Matrik pula...
*banyak memori dan orang-orang yg masih bagi impactnya sehingga saat ini*


dan sekarang..
Habis tahun pertama kat UTM...
*still creating and folding wonderful memories*



hurm..
*flash back balik"...

bila dipikir-pikirkan..dah banyak kali..jumpa orang-orang baru...
lepas itu tak berjumpa dah..
bnyak..banyak sangat....
masa sekolah rendah dan menengah..tak beza sangat orang -orangnya..
tapi bila naik Matrik dan U..memang jumpa ramai orang baru..

~setiap pertemuan pasti menuntut perpisahan~

Lumrah..
setiap kali nak pisah..
pasti air mata ni, murah je nak ngalir..
padahal dah banyak kali perpisahan yang ditempuh...
masa kat Matrik la paling berjujuran...
ha, lagi 1 masa nk pindah g maktab..

Jadi...
kesimpulannya...
dia datang atau dia pergi..
bagi aku..sekarang...
tak perlu dah nangis-nangis..
nangis sebab pikirkan balik, bahawa takkan jumpa dah...
biarlah..
Allah tahu kerja-Nya..
kalu bertemu lagi..Alhamdullilah..
kalu tidak..harap jadi sebahagian lipatan memori dia dan aku.
Namun, harap, dia-dia, masih boleh menjadikan aku sebahagian dari masa depan dia.
Seperti, reunion ke...dan seangkatannya.

LIFE MUST GO ON.
JANGAN BERADA DITAMPUK YANG LAMA

p/s: saya tak mahu dah pikirkan memori dulu yang buat saya termenung..
jadi blur dan sedih sekejap.
benda tu buat saya down dan rigid..
tak nak toleh belakang dah...mungkin hanya sesekali untuk buat pengajaran.

sampai di sini saja..

hurm..sem 2 dah habis.

banyak brg kena packing lagi..

nk simpan dlm store.

store buka sampai mgu nh ja.

kena cepat.

tapi, sy stay UTM sampai bulan JUn..

hurm.

kena bahagi dua nh.


1 untuk stay


1 untuk simpan store.

ok.
saya kemas barang dulu...


buku..


bilik dan baju..